Surrendering to his will

 After comments from Windy and willie enquiring to further clarification on what I said in previous post, that being " although i was submissive in personality I learned that that does not necessarily correlate with the act of submitting)" I thought I would make it a post because as I started to reply in the comment it was getting quite lengthy, it would be no good me having Twitter and being limited to a word count, I talk too much, it also appears I write like I talk :)  I'm beginning to get a better understanding of why my Master is fond of gags!  Plus I would love to hear others thoughts about this if they are happy to share. So, I know I probably don't need to but I also know that the written word can be open to misinterpretation and therefore I should like to say that I don't think anyone can tell someone else what submission and indeed submitting should look like because it's not going to be the same for everyone, so bearing that in mind this is what it

 Master is 11 years older than I am, no big deal, I'm 4o and he is 51, it's not been a problem for us, well, yes there has been issues about it but brought about by others having issues with it, but the ages we are now the age gap is irrelevant.  I'm of the mind that does age actually hold any relevance when it comes to being with someone in a relationship, you could be the same age but that does not guarantee the relationship will fair better than people who have large age gaps, perhaps it's the romantic in me but does love, happiness, friendship etc come with an appropriate age range? my opinion no it doesn't, I respect that there will be people that feel differently, well, I know there are from my own personal experiences. It's been when people find out through conversation that I was 18 when I started dating him, so he was 29, that raised eyebrows, not now, but when the children were small and I mixed more with other parents I noticed the looks, heck my own

I spent a little while yesterday reading blogs, navigating myself around by clicking on people's links in the comments, because to be truthful I have no idea how else to do it, then I couldn't work out how to follow a blog until someone kindly helped me.  Oh and I also have to work out about doing a blog roll, which would certainly make it easier for me to find the blogs I enjoy reading so far and ones I might discover in the future. As we lay in bed last night, I was talking to Master about the posts I had read, and how I was enjoying listening to people about their experiences/their thoughts, I think listening is an apt word to use because although it's writing it's still people behind that writing opening themselves up and allowing others glimpses into their life, well that's how I look at it. I was concerned when I started this myself about how much information is too much, in respect of the not 'normal' aspects of how we live but Master said to remember

 As lockdown is slowly being eased here in England, life is slowly creeping back to normality, 3 of our children have returned to university, our youngest back to college and Master is spending more time in the offices at work rather than working from home, although home is most certainly calmer without the hustle and bustle of everyone being here I am missing it, albeit not all of it!  This lockdown was smoother than the first one back last March, it had to be, Master made made it clear he would not stand for a repeat of that one, and for myself I didn't either, I was held accountable and punished which I'm not proud of and should have known better. It was I believe adapting to lockdown and the restrictions that caused frustrations in us all for different reasons, although I'm not wanting to make excuses, Master does not like excuses but he dislikes disregard for his authority even more, so my slipping into habits he doesn't like wasn't going to go un-noticed for l

 I was quite excited when Master allowed me to start a blog, I had all these ideas and thoughts of what I could write, and now I'm sat here wandering what to write! after much consideration I thought I would approach this much like keeping a personal diary although I have never kept one myself. A good start would be I should think with a little about Master and myself, should anyone read this, it would be helpful to know somewhat about who they are reading about. We have been together 22 years, married for 20 living as Master and slave, we have 4 children and live in England, I don't work outside the home and haven't for a while now, we did things backwards, one might say, I worked part-time whilst the children were all at school, and when our last child was in their final year at secondary school Master made the decision that I should stop working and be home full-time. This was not an issue for me, I am quite service orientated and enjoy looking after the home, cooking, a